Apologies

Apologies

It’s amazing how love travels with you. I’m a sucker for thinking that you would give us the opportunity. Your smile is very deceiving, and you always say to give it time and wait to see how things unfold. I would stay down for you, but your making this so difficult for me. Do I sit and wait? You tell me not to at times, but what if your ready and I’m not? What then? Nah, if you and I are to be…we both need to commit. So now that you tell me to wait and give it time, you act the same way as before. What gives? You should know how much you mean to me by now. I care for you very much. I remember our good times as much as the bad ones too, but maybe? I mean…I was only thinking that maybe we could bring it back to life? We can’t do anything if we both don’t try though. Thoughts race thru my head, mixed with feelings in my heart, that drive me crazy. So I begin…

I’m sorry,

I can’t work on this by myself. Since I don’t have you in my life, its easier to say goodbye. It’s like I was in a relationship with myself, because I know you don’t dwell like I do on a regular basis. So I choose to say goodbye to the one I miss a lot, but knew oh so little of. May your life be complete with those around you, share many laughs and enjoy life to the fullest! The most precious times and smiles I shared with you. I will search for…love happiness and laughter in other places for now. I regret to think of what could have been, but its too late now. If I ever made you jealous I apologize. If ever made you cry, I apologize. If I ever made you hope only to disappoint, I apologize.

Ever since I know you, I’ve tried to do the best I can, I know you don’t realize how much I care for you. I tried…I seriously did. You might not be so easily impressed with my effort baby, but shit…I did the best I could with the cards that were delt to me. It’s not like I should have gone and stalk you at work or drag you from your house or something, right? So I tried to get you involved in My Life as much as I could, you just didn’t dive with me.

For many of us true love comes by only once, many of the times slipping right by us…one thing for sure is that you can’t loose hope for better days. They will come, to the two of us. I know there are hard times in our lives, and uncertainty always grows…but beneath it all just remember I will always love you in My Life.

Apologies,

TheManOnTheHill