Visions

This was meant to be more of a happy blog experience for me, but lately I’ve noticed that my posts are more about the sad times in my life. I document this on line for the reason that if it helps someone else, it was worth it. I also want my daughter (when appropriate) to read and understand some aspects of life in general, and hopefully be able to let her understand more of how a man as myself overcame down falls as well as happiness too. ”The Man On The Hill” Soooo…

Life perfected by a quest to pursue and achieve goals -

Redirected by strange downfalls that appear to bring down your entire world. Pushing them to the side with the strength of others, but the man above, my guidance and overall true friend contends to those who stand in my way. It’s been hard and crucial moments and decisions keep coming up in my life. Destined for failure? I will not admit defeat without a fight, and even through all my pain and suffering that I’ve gone through…

I still believe that God has better days ahead for me and my loved ones. In many ways it almost seems, like they teach you in church, to put your trust with Him, and he will open doors for you. You must be the one willing to go through them though. You set aside all my struggles in life, and I can honestly say that I am very blessed.

My health, my families health and life! What more can I ask for?

That’s why I’ve always said to myself “when I die, do not cry, thrive! for I am with Him!” My last wish would be not a funeral, but a party to celebrate, me finally alongside my one true friend (seriously this is my last wish).

Anyhoot!

Ever felt someone was behind you, but as soon as you turn their gone? yeah, not those visions….

Similar to Dejavu, only frighting…

I’m not a gullable person…I have a hard time believing things. Usually I require Proof in order to get my attention.

What happens though when visions appear in front of your eyes and in a blink of an eye their gone? What happens when you blink…and it’s still there? I ain’t eating mushrooms or getting high off fumes..lol. I do have a troubled past though. Which I now believe has something to do with it…

Here’s a few examples of some of my visions I’ve had:

The Car,

While driving, I’ve had instant visions of me flipping my car over several times on the freeway. I can honestly feel the pain of my life exiting out of my body, and thinking of my love ones as I take my final breath of air. It happens in a matter of 3 seconds and then I’m back to myself.

The Man standing in front of my window,

This is a more recent one, getting ready to go to sleep, my blinds are close but yet  I see a man standing outside..peeking through at times. That’s why I sleep with my blinds open..this man though resembles in many ways to my Father. Which I think because of his early departure from my life, has resulted in a inadvertent search for him.

Happy Home,

Picture a man walking in to your home, grabbing a hold of your love ones and doing what only you can imagine happens in the movies, I feel scared about someone hurting my family or friends.

I guess when you really think about it, thoughts like these race through everyone’sminds ever so often and is only created in your mind from the state of  how you feel at the time. I don’t see many visions anymore though, I feel I’m OK with everyone right now and probably is the reason for that.

Still I wonder…

What happens when you see your grandfather you’ve never met before, floating! some 19′ ft away from you! upstairs on the 12th floor by yourself! yeah,

freak-ish!

My Mum once told me about that vision!

ayayay